Stayed up till 5:30 am last night. Surprisingly I am relatively awake.
I think I must learn how to peel back layers of superficiality and to be graciously honest and open, as a practice.
I miss the wild days of running around in China doing His errands and seeing Him working. But I don’t miss the suffering, who ever does? And I don’t miss the loneliness… Yet a part of me is eagerly waiting until the day I’m ready again to go on his errands again. For now, I must wait for this heart to heal and to confront some of the issues I see in me. Don’t get comfy and selfish in this culture, lil one.
God is so present to all who seek him out. I am comforted that He is never far… Even when I miss times with Him, he is so ever present still. He’s all I need.
friend is choosing to leaving my church over a disagreement. hard to face it+heart hurt.
work is really busy in many ways. coworker just accepted Christ + sudden deadlines.
tonight studying ephesians 5:22-33. am a bit nervous bc of the topic of the passage, it hits rly close to home w the near past. am sure I’ll be feeling squeezed.
sigh.. old wounds hurting.
Annie’s annual autumn posts make me feel slightly more anticipatory abt colder weather ^-^
In exactly 2 weeks it will be autumn, the best season of the year. Hellooo, alma mater hoodies, fuzzy sweaters, chunky scarves, warm drinks, big mugs and all other things fall related. Weather please cool down soon.
When you’re close to the page minimum on your paper and start repeating yourself in intellectual ways.
I am so unbelievably relieved that it’s Friday. This week has been a mix of crazy, stressful, and exhausting. I am relieved it’s a long weekend, and very thankful that I planned time away from the Bay Area and took time off in advance.
The highlight of tonight was studying the Bible with friends that teach and guide me to see a lot in God’s Word. I went in feeling extremely tired, but came out feeling like I had a million bucks. :)